That time of life

            

Deep down my life I can see my past and if it wasn't you for me I was standing nowhere this little Johnny was to cry everytime . You have become my smile more now and I have many reasons to love you like anything. It's been long time I have been your friend and I see that dream of a quiet place where we will stay

. Our house would be a spacious one one store house with garden around . Our drawing room would be facing garden our personal garden where you can take sun bath even with less restrictions of the things u wanted to wear . Our upper stores will be facing sun set from where during  winter time we can sit and relax in the evening discussing our day what we did in office . Our drawing room would be very spacious and bright with less of antiques but more of modern but cozy room where we would be displaying our photographs and our family photos one wall photograph me mom dad sister  you 
and our children. I can imagine your tired eyes and that silver lining on your hair which makes you more beautiful than anytime. This would be our time of life and yes I believe this would be our 

Time of life.

The time you gave me :)

        

I just want to kiss u I alway miss u O my lovely darling I have been waiting for the moment to come when I would be holding your hand and look into  your eyes in which I can see my reflections and your hopes for me. We have travelled a lot a lot since the days my heart was broken it was u who held it and kept it with you until unless it was sewed perfectly from faith you have in me. I always remember the time when you was always there to listen to me and you did not even gave a second thought and boarded flight for me and travelled alone to meet me I did nothing only I was afraid to move ahead but then also you never lose your hope to win me back from my problems which I was facing and see because of your efforts I am your husband today and I proudly say because of your believe in love we are together here today drinking wine in this moonlight holding hands together and listening the silence around a and its our hearts which keep on talking and talking to you..... Oh my lady I miss you ....

gBR:I love you

The confession of a Lie

I often feel guilty of the act that i am not doing things which i am suppose to do. But i keep on repeating the mistakes calling friends watching movies at the time of studying and even fighting with parents. That's my old teenage problem which a  every normal teenager faces. But what about the independence i would like to have in my life where it is i just wanted to explore the things with out  having any judgment by others . I want to get drunk although i dont like its taste have sex with girls flirt more live life laugh more spend most drive BMW make muscular body like that actor hrithik . So what's the matter even if i eat a lot of food this sweetu tooth hearty person want to live independent.so what's backing me up from my life rules tradition financial independence customs yes this culture also . Yes i wanted to live free where i am fulfilling the basic need of my life and then living without  distraction but my brother life is full of situations and practical people which are there to give u advices .i always remember somebody said me " dude advice is like an asshole never offer or  accept until asked for. I am expressing what's in my heart but if i see the other side the real one of my feelings for a man these things in a country like India is cool enough  a brave language but this men Dominating society for women and girls it is very difficult to live freely according to free will if she do anything to everything she want she is seen with different and strange eyes of this society . If she is very open with her opposite sex she is consider as slut or a characterless if she is drinking or smoking in society  she is from a bad culture family or often as characterless or it is commented it does not suits a girl. If she abuse in public to others her feminity is challenged in terms of her polite nature. She can't live like men because she is a woman or a girl . She can't express much because what other will think . Yes i am among all those men which say the same when a girl or women wears  clothes which exposed her body or either  men like us will think they are from upper class society people who thinks they wear less clothed because they are more modern. Come on man why we are ka point such society of people who is tolerating such ideas and livings. Sorry folks its India we are not suppose to express these thought because we are those religious people who loves our motherland but tortures and are two faced toward women.